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A side-effect of no longer being non-monogamous: Pickiness
It’s been over a year since my husband of 25 years officially left me for his other, younger, and very sexual partner. And what an effin’ year it’s been…
As I went to bed last night, I reflected on my current situation → I’m very much single… and lonely.
During the day, my loneliness is less in my face as I go about the usual daytime routine of work + meals + kids’ activities. But at night, with no distractions, the feelings of loneliness surge.
My bed is where I feel it the most. Every night, as I turn off my bedside light, I feel so lonely as I pull the quilt tight over me to warm up. The bed next to me is empty. A couple of years ago, I had someone in my bed pretty much every night.
Now? My bed is very empty.
You’d think, being single and all, that I would have the occasional bed partner, what with the plethora of single men in my city. But, truth be told, a man in my bed has been a rare occurrence this year. Mark, the one I’ve written about a couple of times this year, kept my bed warm earlier on, but we’ve decided to end things (more on that in a later post), and it’s been a couple of months of bed solitude.
It’s not like I haven’t been trying to meet people. I’ve put in the effort to connect with single men my…
