Beautifully written. I love your vulnerability and honesty -- not easy as a woman to say that pregnancy is a bit of a mourning period for the life you had before, when there's so much pressure to just express happiness about the "miracle happening inside you". Truth is, I think many women struggle with their new bodies and sexuality during pregnancy and after. I did. Still do even though my youngest is a teenager!! I think like all things, it's okay to recognize that there are all kinds of wonderful things about being a mother AND all kinds of big feelings about the loss that comes with having a baby in your belly. But I know you will figure it out -- it's okay to feel both the good an the bad.