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Is my worst non-monogamous fear coming true?
Four years ago my husband and I opened up our relationship not knowing that we were majorly, and I mean majorly, shaking things up. In those four years, we have learned an almost entirely new way to define and live out our relationship. Although I sometimes think we are hitting the cruising stage of non-monogamy, we are still learning to navigate new things. Recently, my biggest, worst fear about non-monogamy seems to be emerging…
My husband recently met someone and there is no doubt that he is falling for her. Like, the kind of falling for her that is spelled l.o.v.e.
I can tell it’s different than with all his other partners. He’s talking about her differently and making more time and space for her than with other partners. I can also sense that he has drifted a bit away from me, not engaging with me as much as usual and that his mind/heart/sexual desires drift increasingly towards her and less towards me.
In the past, my husband has kept all of his relationships at the “connected, ongoing but not deeply emotional” level. In essence, he’s been friendly, and even friends, with his partners, but has never felt a deep emotional connection with any of them. This time it is different.
We have been talking about it. Our hard lessons over the last 4 years have taught us one thing, and that is…
