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Moving Too Fast Into Non Monogamy
Reasons why we hit the ground running when we opened up our relationship
Off to the races would have been an apt description for what it looked like when we decided to open up our 20+ year relationship. When the gun went off, my husband and I literally launched ourselves down the track at match speed. Within hours we both had Tinder accounts. We both feverishly texted new matches in the evening, side by side in our bed both totally and completely focused on our phones and the witty, sexy, banter that we were having with strangers. Within weeks I had had gone out with several men, and had had sex with a new man for the first time in 20+ years (it took my husband longer). It was fast-paced, feverish, obsessive and completely one-minded.
To be honest, looking back, I have no idea what my kids did during this period. Or if I actually accomplished any work at the office. Or if I thought about anything else 24/7. I was completely and utterly obsessed.
The idea of being able to do something so new, so out of the ordinary, so risky provided me with the excitement I had been longing for for years. I went from spending bored, restless nights watching Netflix by myself, to flirtatious, titillating, sexual adventures with new men. Suddenly my life had a vibrancy and energy that I hadn’t felt in…
